Midnight confessions

I feel really lonely.

I am not a complete and utter loser (yet; unless I already am and at which point I should just stop now and shut up), but I think I just want company all the time. Is that selfish? I miss having a group of friends to go to, you know... "the girls." Am I making any sense? Well, I hope that isn't much to ask for because that is my prayer request. I want more friends. Heh.

Sigh* but I guess it comes down to the big guy upstairs and if he really did think I needed that group in my life, then I would have them...but I don't and I think thats what scares me. I am afraid because yet again I am trying to take my own life into my own hands and I am not allowing Christ to take control. asfdlk;asdlfkljsdf (can you sense the frustration arising?)

I wake up each morning to greet these struggles and by the time the sun sets--which is when I usually get all my thinking done--it always come down to one thing: trust. If that isn't something I haven't dealt with before? Story of my life. TRUST.

Ok fine. I give up. You win. I trust you.

Yours truly,
Yours